Things to be Said

I've been gone. A long time. Last night doesn't count. I had been out at a wedding a long time.

But that wedding made me think about things. About pure love. And happiness. And here is what I realized: Love does not make us happy, we make us happy. Love enhances the great lives we all live, but it does not define us. Yes, we are complete with the person we love, the one person we choose, but we are not they.

I looked at Karen and Jeff this weekend, and was overwhelmed with emotion. Two people who love each other so dearly is powerful to see. It didn't make me sad for what I don't have, it didn't make we wish for something in the future. It made me ecstatic about right now.

I stood, on the balcony of the Kennedy Center, looking out at the vista, this amazing scene, and I was so happy. And hopeful.

Here is to the couples who love, laugh, struggle, fight, scream and love again. I am blessed to be in so many of your presences.

Anxiety

I don't even know if I spelled anxiety right. But for the loyal readers here we go.

I had brunch with a great friend today. And it was great, and lovely, and sad. Sad because we spoke about the men we loved and lost. Not lost in that kind of "poof, they're gone" kinda way, but poof, wow, they're married. Poof, here we are. Wait, where are we?

Poof, Here I Am. I am an attorney. (no, shut up, I am). Poof, she is the head of Senate Appropriations. Poof. here we are.

I feel like sometimes we do what we don't want...but we learn, grow, and love from it. And we land where we do. I miss being in love. I do. but it will come (I say) and when it does it will be awesome.